"Follow Your Bliss"

March 23:

"Follow your bliss". He is well traveled, a face wrinkled like a half-clenched hand, lizard-like. He speaks of swimming with dolphins, looking at them and "looking into the eye of god". When he gets off the boat he leaps, jumps, swings, like a young person. Like my father used to do. He speaks of the environment and the necessity to 'save our species'. He spent most of his life in PR and marketing new models of Hondas and making loads of $ in so doing. So, now after this life, he can tell me to "follow my bliss". Bliss, swimming with dolphins, traveling...doesnt come easily when one has a 30 000$ University loan and is earning 50 Euro a week. I live in a closet on a 'theatre boat'docked in a cold and wet port town in the Nether-regions. Its funny how someone can live his life working for a corporate giant - contributing to this Babylon System and then, once the wealth is accumulated, he can afford to extricate himself from it. He does so and tells us to 'follow our bliss'. Hmmmm. Maybe you need to be a part of it to realize how unfulfilling it all is, and then you learn to run away...but how to run away and enjoy without the means. Hmmmmm.
Nice sentiments, very pleasant and informed person, one of the nicest Ive met so far on this adventure. Much more gracious and social than those that are 'hosting' me. Its amazing how the concept of this production and venue appealed to me so much - a production (fire, dancing, flying, music) performed on the boat, from town to town, bringing theatre to 'those that normally cannot access it', about displaced peoples, refugees finding nothing close to refuge in the West...a hypothetical 'containment camp' a la Guantanamo Bay on US soil...their plight sung soulfully at dusk on the deck of the ship...

This place is run like any office, with a clear hierarchy and delineation of importance granted to people. Self-righteous folk, disdain for religion and vegetarians. Fuck. People try to be so important in their causes. It just seems to result in self-fulfilling efforts. Self gratification. They cant even look me in the eyes when they are talking to me!!!!
People that think they are better, or more clairvoyant, more 'visionary' than others end up defeating their own purpose and wind up as closed minded preachers. Exactly what you reject!!!! The more I try to find something in this world, a place to be, to fit, a home, the more dissapointed and alienated I feel. Humans are a virus, slowly rotting this place, slowly choking it off from its inate perfection.

There is a goat out there named Bibo. He lives outside of Bremen, Germany. I want to go and take Bibo with me across Europe, walking, seeing it all, no one bothering me because I dont care. Not for your selfish desires. And no, I wont eat Bibo if I get hungry. I'll let him eat the grass and I'll sit and watch and eventually someday someone will come by with some extra vegetable soup.